Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
I have begun to notice the past few months that there is a very important time of the day that I need to pay attention to. It is early in the morning, While the Coffee Brews.
Right now I rent a big room on the second floor of an old farmhouse. I share a kitchen, and a garage. My room is wonderful, it has big windows facing the south and the west and I have lots of light. There is a train bridge just about a hundred yards away and all through the day and night, trains rumble by carrying all their goods and it causes this old farmhouse to slightly quiver and shake.
I actually love feeling the movement of the train and its connection to my room by invisible vibrations. I have my brother Angelo’s old desk, a couple of paintings on the wall, my very comfortable bed and pictures of Space from the Hubble Telescope that fascinate me and inspire me.
There is also a large, broad shelf right by one of my windows where I have set up my coffee pot. I have my favorite cup, and a jug of water and delicious coffee beans, ground fine. Each night before I got to bed, I set up the pot so it will be ready to turn on when I wake up.
When I first wake up, I decide if this is it…am I really going to be up for the day now or not. (I normally wake up around 3:00 am every day.) Once the decision is made that I am up for the day, I can literally reach from my bed and turn on the coffee pot.
I lay in the dark and during this 10 minutes or so, While the Coffee Brews, I experience a Sacred space and time. It is that time when I have only me and the day ahead of me. I have not begun the activities of give and take that go one throughout the day. I am just awake and present. and if I pay attention, I begin to notice if I am feeling happy, or sad, or anxious, or bothered by anything or excited about anything. It is the time of the day that is full of potential for me. It is the time of the day when I make inner choices about my attitude towards the day.
It is the time of the day when I might notice that I need to let go of something I am still carrying from yesterday.
It is the time of the day when I practice breathing and patience and being in the Now. When that coffee is brewing, it is both a challenge and a joy to learn how to be still and not rush myself by desire for the next moment.
Coffee is perhaps one of my favorite things on earth to ingest. St. Augustine has written about the 5 proofs of the Existence of God…and I have always said that Coffee is the 6th!!! Only a Good and Benevolent God could have created such a fabulous and enjoyable bean for us to discover!
Besides looking forward to that hot, steamy cup of Joe, I have begun to equally look forward to that time While the Coffee Brews. Often it is a place of deep loneliness for me. It is when I am conscious how alone I feel, and I do not have anything that is assuaging that loneliness or distracting me from it. Today, because I knew I was going to write about it, I was especially dedicated to being in that quiet, lonely place of sometimes painful but always beautiful potential.
Respecting, embracing, and being very conscious during this time when the coffee is brewing is part of my ongoing commitment to Now, to living in the present moment. Today, when I was feeling the loneliness of that place, something shifted, as I understood that this empty place is where I meet everyone else in the whole world who also dares to be present in the quiet empty place, While the Coffee Brews…
With Love from the Empty Space, Z Miłością, Z Pustego Miejsca, Con Amore Dal Luogo Vuoto,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)