Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
I was in need of some help, and I was feeling disappointed that I was in need and a bit anxious about asking for help. Yet, I am able to completely trust the Heart and Acceptance of my friend Antonio and so I turned to him and asked. No matter how far I go on the Road to Recovery and Healing, I have had to keep remembering that this does not mean I will never need to ask anyone for some help or support.
Healing does not mean independence from the support of God, the Universe, Nature, our Friends, our Family..I am learning over and over again that Healing means I learn how to Graciously Receive, as well as Graciously Give.
So, I asked Antonio for help, and his immediate response was “Yes, Thank you for Asking!”. My friends, this really shook me to my Core. I swear I could hear the Voice of God through the voice of my Antonio when he said this. I don’t remember ever having heard anyone respond to a request for help like this. I know that although I try to always respond to requests by being a Cheerful Giver, I don’t think I have ever THANKED someone for asking my help, and suddenly I see something so deep and beautiful and amazing about having that awareness and attitude.
Ever since he said this to me a few days ago, those words have been echoing in my heart and mind, and their deep meaning is revealing itself to me. What a joyful thing it is when someone needs something and I have the capacity to give it! I think of the elderly and dying people I care for on a daily basis and how they have many needs, and I think of the fact that I am actually GRATEFUL that I can help them, too.
As I have prayed for my own needs to be met and prayed for those that I love, these last few days I imagined God saying to me “Honey, Thank you for Asking! I want so much to do all this for you. I want to care for your needs, I want to Forgive you. I want to Surprise you with Joy. I want to show you how Proud I am of you. I want to give you the gift of a Happy Heart and an Abundant Life of Joy. Thank you for Asking! “
I am asking the Lord and the Universe to help Integrate this kind of Loving, Cheerful, Generous attitude in me, so that I can become a more God-Like Giver and also a More Open Hearted, Guilt-Free Receiver.
You know, when I had decided that I was going to need to take a summer break from blogging, there were so many people that emailed and wanted me to continue and it did touch me very deeply. I thought about it a lot and decided that I would find the time and energy to keep blogging once or twice a week…and so, to all of you who wanted me to stay in touch through this Blog, I say!
Thank you for Asking! Dziękuję za Prosząc! Grazie per Avermelo Chiesto!
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)