Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
This morning I was at the Hospital to see my brother Gioffredo where he is in an Oncology/Hospice unit. First I went to room he was in when I left yesterday and the door was open. The bed was empty and the room had been cleaned out and for a moment I gasped and thought he had Died overnight and I just hadn’t been notified! Thankfully a nurse recognized me, and told me that they had moved him to another room and pointed down the hall to where he was.
There was a big sign on the door that said “Visitors: Limit Visits to 10 Minutes.”
That sign felt like a Brick Wall, Barring me from my Brother. I felt a Thousand Feelings while standing at that Closed Door with the Sign on it.
Of course, In a very Real Way I understand the need for Limits. We come from a big family and now have quite an extended family. Plus Gioffredo has many friends and co-workers who want to see him to say Good-Bye.
He has a Tremendous amount of Pain.
He has a very Limited Time left on Earth.
The Dying Process and Experiencing his own Sudden Demise is a very Personal and Shocking and Energy Requiring Process.
So, to have just 10 Minutes to be with him this morning was as Appropriate as it was Dreadful.
When you only have 10 Minutes, there is a Condensing of Thoughts and Words and so I went in and just made Eye Contact and said to Gioffredo ” Thank You for Everything. I Love You More Than I Can Say.” I know those two little sentences carry all that I need to say about the 50 years of Relationship that we share.
Because of the Reality of Eternity…of Heaven…I do not fret or fear that this is the End. I know our Communication will continue, on another level, as it has between Angelo and I since his death. Yet that does not make this Easy.
All of this makes me keenly aware of the importance of Being Aware Of and Enjoying and Appreciating the Time I have with everyone in my life. Because none of us know the Day or the Hour when our life, or someone else’s life, is suddenly Taken from this Earth.
I know I need to Stand in the Empty Space, I need to Respect the Sign on the Door, I need to Trust in Eternal Life and in the Power of Love that Never Ends. I Believe in Eternal Life, I Believe in the Time when there will be No More Good-Byes. And I Believe I can learn to live that Truth right now. I am only saying Good-Bye to Gioffredo’s Earthly Presence. His Being, His Sou. will Continue to Be…and so will Mine…I look forward peacefully to the Day when we are all at Home Together in the Presence of God. These are the Words from Scripture that I am Keeping in My Mind and Heart Today from John 14: 1-3.
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God ; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am.”
“Niechaj się nie trwoży serce wasze; wierzycie w Boga i w mię wierzycie. W domu Ojca mego wiele jest mieszkania; a jeźli nie, wżdybymci wam powiedział. Idę, abym wam zgotował miejsce; a gdy odejdę i zgotuję wam miejsce, przyjdę zasię i wezmę was do siebie, żebyście, gdziem ja jest, i wy byli.”
” Il vostro cuore non sia turbato; abbiate fede in Dio, e abbiate fede anche in me! Nella casa del Padre mio ci son molte dimore; se no, ve l’avrei detto; io vo a prepararvi un luogo; e quando sarò andato e v’avrò preparato un luogo, tornerò, e v’accoglierò presso di me, affinché dove son io, siate anche voi; “
With Love, Sorrow and Faith, Z Miłości, Smutku i Wiary, Con Amore, il Dolore e la Fede
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)