Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
I work with the elderly every day, offering them a wide variety of services and one of the things that I have noticed is some of these people who are able to put them selves into bed still want me to come to their apartment at the time they usually go to bed. It is not that they need my help to get in to bed, or any other physical help. I have come to realize that it is because they must just want someone to Say Good-Night to them.
This struck me deeply last night as I looked at the face of one of the women who requests this. I saw her loneliness, and a sort of deep but silent anxiety in her eyes. If her Eyes could speak, this is what I would imagine that they said to me last night:
“Please come and be near me as I lay down on my bed. I am afraid. I am old and I am alone. My husband has died and since then there is no one to say Good Night to. When I lay down to sleep, I feel like I am falling into an Abyss and I do not know if anyone will find me. What if I Die tonight? What if I have another stroke like I had 3 months ago, when you found me in the morning, unconscious? What if this is my Last Night? I need to hear a Voice, I need the Presence of Another Human Being as I take enter the Frightening Challenge of Night.
Please, just Say Good-Night and tell me you will check on me every two hours. Tell me about something that is scheduled for tomorrow so I have something to look forward to, so I have a Reason to Be Awake in the Morning. Let me hear you say Good Night….”
You know what? I know that Grief, that Sadness, that sometimes all I wish for is someone to Say Good Night to me, too. I am Alone, too…but like the Empty Spaces in our lives, I also have been learning to Embrace the Silence and Being All Alone. These things I write to you about are all part of the Details of living a Healed and Conscious Life, to the Full, and all these situations and people in my world are my Teachers whom I want to Respect and Revere and Appreciate.
I have learned that I am a part of the Family of the Universe, and when I come home from work late at night and the Stars are out and the Moon, I look up to the Sky and I Say “Good Night” to all of you, my readers, my friends around the world. I say Good Night to the Day that has been. I say Good Night to my own Soul and I lay my head to rest on the pillows of Acceptance and Gratitude for Every Moment and I warm myself with the Blankets of Mercy for all that I still Grieve.
So, with my love I say to you:
Good Night! Dobranoc! Buonanotte!
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)