Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
We buried my brother Gioffredo this week. These days were filled with Grief, Love, Trust, Faith…and all the Life and Death Questions that so often surface when we are going through the death of a loved one.
Gioffredo went Home to God, he went Home to Heaven. He went by a Route we did not expect, predict or foresee in any way. But he went…The following is something I have thought about this week…about how God leads each of us in our daily, our weekly, our yearly, our lifetime pathways and destinations, and often it is by Another Route..one that we had not planned.
In the Gospel of Matthew there is the story of the Three Wise Men…the Magi, who were led to Bethlehem by a Star, after the birth of Jesus….included in the story is the character of Herod, who was trying to trick them..but they were warned not to return to him, and found their way home By Another Route. This story has always intrigued me and most especially the idea of finding a way Home By Another Route.
Here is that verse:
From the Gospel of Matthew 2:12
“And having been warned in a dream not to go back to Herod, they returned to their country by another route.”
“ Lecz będąc upomnieni od Boga we śnie, aby się nie wracali do Heroda, inszą drogą wrócili się do krainy swojej.”
“Poi, essendo stati divinamente avvertiti in sogno di non ripassare da Erode, per altra via tornarono al loro paese.”
A long time ago, when I was still deeply Insane and deeply lost in my Mind and Soul, I was having a major inner breakdown and I was crying out to God for help. I kept saying “I just want to be Normal! I just want to find a place to call Home! I just want to be Well!” The Lord spoke so gently to me in that moment and I heard a voice saying to me…”Cara Mia, don’t be afraid…I am leading you Home by Another Route…” That voice was so soothing, so trustworthy, so Sacred…I knew it was The Lord.
Therapy became the Route for me to find my way into an Inner Home that would be with me where ever I lived. Painting was the Other Route that I took to pour out what I needed so desperately to get out of me.
Often since then, I have had times when I did not know what the next step was, when I was confused and things seemed to be complicated and stressful…and then I would remember the sound of that Sacred Voice saying to me…“Cara Mia, I am leading you Home by Another Route.” Calm would come over me. Peace would descend. And I could breathe again.
Now, when I am perplexed at my life circumstances, inner or outer, I do not panic if the Route is unfamiliar or unusual. I don’t panic if it seems like it doesn’t make sense, rather I trust and I know, that the Lord is leading me Home by Another Route.
Now, when I wonder why someone else is doing something that doesn’t make sense to me, when their decision don’t seem like the most direct path to what they are attempting, I stop and do not judge…perhaps the Lord is leading them By Another Route, too.
The old, the familiar Routes and Roads that we all take inwardly and outwardly are often exactly what is best. But sometimes, there may be a very good reason that we cannot see right now, that we are being lead to our destination By Another Route.
Thank you, Lord, for the time I was privileged to have on Earth with Gioffredo. Thank you for sharing him to me as a wonderful Brother. Thank you for leading Home to you. Now, please, allow him to still be Present in his Heart and Soul to me, and to those who loved him so much.
In the Light of God, W Światło Boga, Alla luce di Dio
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)