Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
Just over a week ago, I had an email from Jean Cozier, the President and Founder of the Awakenings Foundation in Chicago, Illinois, asking if I would be able come up with a Title for my exhibit that will be in their Gallery soon. She and I have been collaborating for some months now on an exhibit of some of my work that will be featured in the Awakenings Foundation Art Gallery during the months of October and November of this year.
When I received that email I stopped whatever it was that I was doing at the time, and I sat down. I knew that if I tried too hard, the Title would never come to me, so I just spent a few minutes breathing and quieting down my mind. Because my paintings came from the deep communication of my Soul, I asked my Soul to please tell me….“What is the Name of the Exhibit ?” And as I stood up from the chair to do what ever it was I needed to do next, the name came to me: My Fire: The Alchemy of Abuse.
This entire journey of Therapy, Prayer, Painting, Writing, Loving, Forgiving, Letting Go…all of this has been lived in a Fire of Pain, Courage, Joy and Grief…and it has been a Fire of Alchemy. That, to me, is the power of the Resurrection. The glory of a Resurrection is only Glorious because it happened to the Crucified, right? The Resurrection was the most Amazing event on Earth precisely because it was the Impossible and yet it Happened!
My Fire: The Alchemy of Abuse is a bold claim and it is My Claim. I have taken all the Torture, all the Abuse, the Violence and Neglect and I have allowed and assisted in its transformation into Gold, through all the intense work I have done within myself with the help of the Lord, Dr. A., and a few others.
It was a fascinating challenge for me to go through my hundreds of paintings and come up with a small selection of them that I would be able to actually create an exhibit with that would give a strong sense of my process of facing my experience of severe abuse, and the resulting insanity it had left me with, and then the journey into healing and recovery of sanity, peace and joy. Jean and I both feel that the paintings chosen, along with some brief text with each, do just that. Hallelujah!
I believe with all my Soul that each of us is able to take whatever dross, whatever pain, whatever is dreadful in our lives and use it as fuel for that Fire within us, and with the deepest intentions and desires for wholeness and healing…with all the courage and love and forgiveness we can find to put in that furnace of our Souls, everything can become Gold.
We can all be Alchemists of our own lives and Souls, and then nothing can permanently harm us.
With Love I Remain,
The Alchemist, Od Alchemika, L’Alchimista,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)