Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
A number of people have been asking about the “paintings” tab on my new website and wondering why it is empty! I want to assure you that I am working on that, and I intend to choose a selection of paintings from each of my three books, and post them on the website. I will include one painting from each chapter, so there will be 7 paintings from each book. Each of my books have 30-60 paintings in them, all arranged according to Chapter Theme, (7 Chapters/Themes in each book,) so I think that this will give you a good peek into the books. It is taking a bit longer than I had originally thought it would to learn my new website and how to operate it, etc. I appreciate your patience as I get these things done.
This week is a big week for me, as I am preparing to send copies of my books to several universities that have requested them for review in their psychology departments, I am writing to more Universities and Colleges to offer these books. A number of psychologists have told me that they feel strongly that these books would be wonderful teaching tools for students of psychology on the impact of abuse, and also very helpful in understanding the role of the therapist in this kind of serious and thorough recovery from severe abuse.
In my books I offer a very close up, insider view into the mind and heart of a very broken woman, (me) who was literally Insane. I have also opened up and given the readers a deep look into the My Therapeutic Relationship with Dr. A. and how it worked for me and the unique and delicate role that Dr. A. had in my healing.
I have two Deep, Passionate Reasons for writing and publishing my story:
1) I want to offer Hope and Encouragement to anyone who has suffered from the effects of abuse or violence, and to share with them that it is possible to heal deeply and thoroughly from abuse. I want to offer my paintings as mirror, to help others locate their own wounds, so that they can acknowledge how bad it was, and find their way to healing through embracing and loving themselves through the process. Many victims of violence have told me that my paintings helped them to put a “voice” of sorts on their pain. One of the most moving emails I received was from a woman in Europe who said that her Heart had been frozen for over 30 years, from deep trauma and abuse that she suffered in her childhood, and that she recognized her own pain in my paintings and she cried for the first time in all those years. She said the paintings were “thawing” out her frozen heart. Honestly, when I received that email I knew that if I had done it all for just that one woman, it was worth it. I feel like she and I have become silent sisters across the world. And there are many others, too.
2) I want to communicate to Psychologists, Therapists, and to students of Psychology about the depth of Damage that Abuse causes, and I feel I am able to communicate that very in vivid detail. Unfortunately, many victims of abuse have been further hurt and traumatized by a lack of understanding on the part of their therapist, and that can be so dreadful and discourage people from seeking help. The psychologists who have read my books and have contacted me have said that these are extraordinarily helpful tools for teaching, so I am working to make them known.
And so, my friends, I will continue to do these things to the best of my ability. It seems to be my Life Purpose right now, and it is where my Heart is. I also work a full time job, 40 hours a week, caring for elderly folks in their homes, and that is my “bread and butter” job. By that I mean it keeps the rent paid and the groceries in the cupboard, but my Heart is also in that work. I absolutely LOVE to be with elderly people, and to assist them in many ways as they are walking through their last weeks, months and years. They are Teachers of My Soul and I try to bring Kindness and Tenderness and Reassurance to them in this time of their bodily and mental decline.
Please know that you are all very much a part of my life and heart and that I appreciate your presence more than I can say. I pray that you will benefit from what I have had to share. For me the Crowning of my Healing, is that what was once Darkness in my Life, can now become a Light for my brothers and sisters around the World. That is the Victory of Light. That is the Ultimate Joy in all of this…That Abundant Good Emerges from a place that was once a Disastrous Place of Anguish.
I love you all.
With my Gift from the Heart, Z Moim Dar z Serca, Con il Mio Dono dal Cuore,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)