Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
In the past six years I have moved a number of times, primarily around my job opportunities and in late August when I was offered the Director position at a very well established memory care and hospice house, I accepted that job and moved again, as this job was in a city about 50 km. from where I was living.
Packing up my belongings, resettling in a new apartment, going through all the steps that this involves, is so familiar to me, yet for the first time it was feeling tiresome. For the first time in my life I actually am looking forward to putting down roots and not going through another “Change of Address”. It is amazing how many places I have to inform of my Change of Address: The bank, the post office, the doctors office, the car insurance company, the medical and dental insurance company, the places where I have investments, the phone company, the department of motor vehicles, the IRS, etc. Plus all my family and friends!
I stayed present to the process and to what it felt like, because finding my Home on earth has been a painful journey for many years and one that I have continued to struggle with…until the day I discovered that my Home is my Soul. My Home is inside of me. My Home is my own Being.
All through my childhood I longed for Heaven and felt that I would never be at Home on Earth. But waiting for Heaven can be a very long wait, especially when you start very young!
Now it is all coming together for me…Heaven, Home and Soul…and I feel such a deep comfort in knowing that I belong at Home in my own Soul, in my own Being. My address may change often or not often at all….my mailing Address is not my Home..it is where I pick my mail! My house or apartment is where I lay my head to rest at night. I am my Home, and where I reside at any given point is the place where I bring my Home to be for that time.
As I was praying and thanking the Lord this morning for leading me Home, into my own Heart and Soul and Being, and for being Present with me there, these words from the Gospel came to my mind and gave me joy. The Lord is making his Home within us!
These are the words from the Gospel of John: 14: 18-23
“I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.” Then Judas (not Judas Iscariot) said, “But, Lord, why do you intend to show yourself to us and not to the world?” Jesus replied, “Anyone who loves me will obey my teaching. My Father will love them, and we will come to them and make our home with them.”
“Nie zostawię was sierotami, przyjdę do was. Jeszcze maluczko, a świat mię już więcej nie ogląda; lecz wy mię oglądacie; bo ja żyję, i wy żyć będziecie. W on dzień wy poznacie, żem ja jest w Ojcu moim, a wy we mnie, i ja w was. Kto ma przykazania moje i zachowuje je, ten jest, który mię miłuje; a kto mię miłuje, będzie go też miłował Ojciec mój; i ja go miłować będę, i objawię mu siebie samego. Powiedział mu Judasz, nie on Iszkaryjot: Panie! cóż jest, że się nam objawić masz, a nie światu? Odpowiedział Jezus, i rzekł mu: Jeźli mię kto miłuje, słowo moje zachowywać będzie; i Ojciec mój umiłuje go, i do niego przyjdziemy, a mieszkanie u niego uczynimy.”
“Non vi lascerò orfani; tornerò a voi. Ancora un po’, e il mondo non mi vedrà più; ma voi mi vedrete, perché io vivo e voi vivrete. In quel giorno conoscerete che io sono nel Padre mio, e voi in me ed io in voi. Chi ha i miei comandamenti e li osserva, quello mi ama; e chi mi ama sarà amato dal Padre mio, e io l’amerò e mi manifesterò a lui. Giuda (non l’Iscariota) gli domandò: Signore, come mai ti manifesterai a noi e non al mondo? Gesù rispose e gli disse: Se uno mi ama, osserverà la mia parola; e il Padre mio l’amerà, e noi verremo a lui e faremo dimora presso di lui.”
So, as I immerse myself in this new and amazing chapter in my life, I keep in my mind these thoughts about Home, Addresses, God, Soul and Presence and it is from Within that I live and pour out my life.
Thank you to each of your for your Presence in my life. You are present in my Home, because you are Present in my Heart! Welcome!
With love from my Home and my Soul, Z miłości od mojego Domu i mojej Duszy, Con amore dalla mia Casa e la mia Anima,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)