Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
Before I begin todays blog, I want to say that I have great respect and welcome for my new friends in Poland and Italy who are following these blog posts and I want to greet you in your Mother Tongue. My Italian is fair,…but I have never studied Polish and so I am depending on the accuracy of Google Translate! Please, friends, do not be offended if I have used your Language improperly. I would be so grateful if one of you would email me and correct me if I do not use your language properly or appropriately. Dziękuję! Grazie Mille!
Please also forgive my English mishaps, as I cannot afford to have a proofreader for my blog posts! I do my best, but at times my writing is more like my painting: I go into my room and splash the words out on the screen like I used to do with paint on a canvas. I use punctuation more like salt and pepper…sprinkling commas and apostrophes over my words and hoping they land in the right spot. It is not done disrespectfully, but truly it is not My Gift. Rules regarding Words make me panicky and I cannot ever remember them! As you have probably noticed, I use Capitalization as my personal and preferred form of Emphasis. It is my style, but not “Proper”.
Okay, Now to the topic at hand…Yesterday I was writing about how I came to understand that I often resorted to Severing myself from what I loved, which was actually a broken and distorted way of trying to Hang On to it. It is like Freezing something or someone in Time. And it has Dreadful consequences. The most damaging and painful consequence being that I end up feeling completely Separate from everything and everyone, especially from all that I Love.
Deepak Chopra writes so beautifully about Unity Consciousness as that place deepest in our Being where we experience no lack, no separation, no loneliness, no wanting and where we find the fulfillment of all our desires. In this place there is the Peace that Passes All Understanding, and the Knowledge that we are All United. We are All in Communion with one Another.
Those words ring True to me. I believe they are Truth…and when I ask myself “How do I make my Home in Unity Consciousness and Heal from the Dreadful Isolation of (Perceived) Severance?”, it becomes Very Clear that it is Through Letting Go and Trusting the Presence of Everything and Everyone, that the Self-Inflicted Wounds of Severance become Healed and Transformed.
Everything is Possible. I made a serious Commitment when I began therapy with Dr. A. that I would be willing to pay attention and notice when I am “Severing”, and that when I find myself doing that, I will Inundate that Pain-Filled place with Love and Kindness and I will Unclench my Hands and Let Go…
Today I am Holding Still and Experiencing that Nothing Is Severed, Everything is simply in Gentle Fluctuating Motion of Giving and Receiving.
I am paying attention to my Breath and it helps me to Learn and Integrate this lesson and fortifies my Healing. If I were to be Severed from my Breath, I would die. If I hang to my Breath too long, I would die…I live by the Continuous Giving and Receiving, the Taking In and Letting Go…
With my Love and Commitment, z Miłością i Zaangażowaniem, Con Amore e Impegno,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others !
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)