Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
As I am living more and more consciously and in the Present Moment, I am much more keenly aware of when I get disturbed by an event, by a sudden change of plans or demands, even by a thought! One of the ongoing “problems” I have had since I was about 5 years old, is that I have been overweight, sometimes by a lot, sometimes by a little, but I have never been thin!
When I think of the time and the energy and the percentage of days over many decades that I have felt ashamed, ugly, sad, distressed, not good enough, afraid, and anxious about my weight, it is staggering. Even though I am very healthy at this point in my life, and I eat healthy, and I have not smoked in several years, I still can fall into the trap of feeling that I am somehow guilty or failing in life because I would still be considered “overweight” by the standards in North America.
Instead of fighting with this pain, this burden, I have been paying close attention to it and focusing my love on it, to see if the distress or angst would dissolve. Then the other day I was re-reading Eckart Tolle’s book, A New Earth, and this quote jumped out at me:
“The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it.”
As I stayed with this thought and for the first time in my life I wondered what life would be like, if I simply and completely accepted my body, just as it is, right here, right now. What if my weight is not a problem? What if I just discontinue seeing it as a problem and treating it like a problem and accusing myself and my body of having a problem?
What if I am completely okay? Why is “having no problems” almost a scary thought? I think that it is a bit scary because I am letting go of having person, place, thing or situation to point the finger at when I am challenged in any way means I am fully responsible for my life and how I feel about it. It is taking 100% responsibility for how I live and respond to life. Wow…what a shift this is!
What if accepting everything about Me, everything about Life, everything about everything right here and now is the way to live? What if complete acceptance of every moment is the way to live that completely eliminates “problems”?
My friends, my commitment to the New Day, to living in the Bright Light of Love, means that I am committed to making such a leap. I woke up this morning and I have decided to make that shift in my thoughts..to Accept everything about me right this moment and give myself the experience of Having No Problems.
So here I am, today. I am soon heading to work and I feel a sweet excitement in my heart and mind as I begin this New Day, with the knowledge that I can choose to Have No Problems.
I wish you all well and send my love.
With my Gift from the Heart, Z moim Dar z Serca, Con il mio Dono dal Cuore,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)