Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
My brother Gioffredo died over the weekend, after less than six weeks since his diagnosis of pancreatic cancer. I was with him, sitting right next to him, along with a room full of family members, when he breathed his last. It was a very deep and sad and beautiful moment. We were all so relieved that it was a painless and peaceful death. He had been in a tremendous amount of physical pain up until the last few days.
It is all still so fresh, it is a little hard to comprehend. I went to work last evening and in between caring for my clients, I would suddenly find myself gasping out in the hall and realizing that Gioffredo is really dead…he is really NOT coming back. I won’t see him on earth again. I won’t hear his voice over the phone. We won’t ever meet for coffee again, like we used to.
For him, I feel a huge relief and even some Joy. I know he is with God…and with so many others whom we love. Our other brother, Angelo, who died a year a half ago, certainly is with him. A few days before he died, Gioffredo said that Angelo had come to his room and tapped him on the shoulder.
Twice while Gioffredo was in the hospital, he said that Angelo had come in to the hospital room and looked at him, and was being very reassuring. Gioffredo said to me: “I just know that Angelo is going to come and bring us Home, one at a time.” (Angelo had been the oldest, and Gioffredo was next..in fact they were less than a year apart. Then there is a string of us Girls.)
Now I have no biological brother on earth and that feels very uncomfortable for me. But this morning I swear I felt him nearby. I do believe that Death is not the End…it is the simply the Next Step, and I believe that I will be with him again, in a new way, when it is my turn. Meanwhile, I will Grieve the Earthly Loss and Let Go, as best I know how.
Thank you all for your kindness and good wishes and prayers for Gioffredo and all of our family.
Thank you, too, for understanding that I have not had very much time or energy to post very often this past month and a half. I want to end this post today with this beautiful quote from one of my favorite people on earth, Deepak Chopra:
DEEPAK CHOPRA, Life After Death
“Whatever it is that occurs at death, I believe it deserves to be called a miracle. The miracle, ironically, is that we don’t die. The cessation of the body is an illusion, and like a magician sweeping aside a curtain, the soul reveals what lies beyond.”
With Love, Sorrow and Faith, Z Miłości, Smutku i Wiary, Con Amore, il Dolore e la Fede,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)