Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
Eckart Tolle is one of my favorite authors. His books that I have and interviews and talks that are available on YouTube and his website have been so helpful for me in growing in consciousness and integration. Dr. A. first introduced to me The Power of Now, when I was in the thick of therapy and my insanity. I remember how the very title of the book shook me up, because at the time I was in the grip of the power of my past, my history. Little by little I was able to read that book and benefit from it in tiny increments. Using it to help me be present in the moment during those years helped keep me safer because much of the time I was in the depths of flashbacks and dissociation.
Over the last 6 or 7 years since I first read it, my paperback copy is tattered, tear-stained, coffee-stained, and highlighted, and has become a treasured tool that keeps on giving to me. I find I can re-read a paragraph here and there and it still can have powerful healing and enlightening impact on me. The other day I was reading from the first part of the book and came across this sentence, and it jumped out at me and I began to cry with joy, because it speaks of what I have been very consciously choosing to do especially the past year or so, to incarnate my beliefs in all my choices:
” A belief may be comforting. Only through your own experience, however, does it become liberating.”
(p. 16) Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now,
For example, one of my beliefs is that my gut instinct will never lead me astray if I pay attention to it and honor it. That is not something I can do now and then, it has to be all the time, or else I lose contact with that small but strong voice in my guts. Well, sometimes my gut feeling is that I need to say or do something that may not seem reasonable or prudent from an outsider perspective, but as I have committed to fully listening and following the guidance of this inner compass, I have begun to experience the liberation that Tolle speaks of.
I chose to leave a job that seemed fantastic, and within days of leaving from that job, many other things happened in my life circumstance that made it absolutely perfect that I was no longer tied down with that job. My guts knew before anything unfolded, and by following my instinct, I was prepared for the next step of my journey.
Having an interior compass gives me such a sense of safety and provision. I know that God’s hand is holding my compass and His love is what directs the needle to the direction that is most beneficial for me.
With my gift from the heart, Z moim dar z serca, Con il mio dono dal cuore,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others! This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)