Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
As you know from my previous post, I was having my website entirely designed and so I was unable to be posting for a few days. It happened like this, I was talking about website design with a friend, who knows an awful lot more than I do about these things. He sent me a couple of examples of new themes/templates that I might want to select.
My immediate reaction was YES! How fun, how beautiful, how classy! This one was considered a Premium Theme that I would need to pay for, plus I would have to pay a web designer to re-do the site. I just literally jumped into it, without spending much time on really accessing the design and imagining my own art work and blog on it…because it was new and sort of elegant or flashy.
When it was ready for me to see, I was stunned by how instantly I did not care for it, how it upset me and I felt uncomfortable with it. My paintings in that theme simply did not fit. It did not feel like it was a good match.
The blog roll in that theme had black background and white lettering and I really don’t like that at all! I just do not care much for this new web design and I knew it in my guts so I had to admit my mistake and ask the web designer to please go back and put my prior website back up.
This whole situation is costing me money, time, energy and some stress, however, I am committed to finding the Gift in Every Circumstance, in Every Situation, in every Event, and this is what I have found in this one:
1) I need to discern between a Sudden, Courageous Leap of Faith, and an Impulsive Decision. Sometimes it is hard to know which is which, but I know that I can learn to recognize one from the other if I take a deep breath and stand at a distance and look on as the Observer, even briefly.
2) I am fully responsible for my Choices and in this case that means when I purchase a service or product without checking it out thoroughly, then I am left with the Choice I made.
3) When all is said and done, I choose to Forgive Myself and Let Go and consider the financial cost to be a sort of “Tuition,” and the other aspects of it to be important Principles to be reminded of.
I am a Survivor, I am a Woman constructing and designing my own Healing, and the Joy of this Journey is that Nothing is Left Outside, Every Aspect of Life is eligible for Healing! That is one of the most wonderful things Dr. A. taught me, that Everything is worthy of my Attention and my Efforts to bring Healing to.
So, the new design is still up, until the web designer can change it back. I would be happy if any of you would have a look at it and gave me your opinion, as Observers.
Meanwhile, Onward and Forward…Today! Już Dziś! Oggi!
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)