Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
Courage is something that many people have reflected back to me that I seem to have had an abundance of, both in the survival of years of abuse and then in the intensely hard work of recovery. There are many profound and beautiful things written about courage, about overcoming hardships, obstacles, traumas. There are magnificent accounts of bravery and faith, and about the survival instinct and I think they all carry facets of truth and power in them.
As I have thought about what Courage was/is to me, it came to like this:
Courage was the only Boundary that my abusers could not cross. They could violate my body, my mind, my heart. They could traumatize and trample on my daily existence for years and years.
But no one could reach my Courage or prevent me from exerting it, because I created and exerted it in the most secret and hidden place of my being during the years abuse and then it was made more visible as I exerted the energy and drive and commitment to heal and recover.
That courage was created in the deepest recesses of my person, in my soul, and it was the only Boundary that I could hold up that no one could violate. I had a vision the other day, like a memory, looking back I saw how I created Courage out of anger that could not be expressed in any other way. I created it out of love for my Heart, that I knew had come from the Heart of God.
Maybe that is why I survived. Because I found that one line, that one fence, that one boundary between me and those who abused me.
That Courage was formed in the Fire of my Soul and its measure was greater than the dark energies trying to destroy me.
What a Hallelujah! What a Victory and Joy! I want to give my Heart’s energy now to encouraging others and in expressing gratitude to all those who have encouraged me throughout my life.
(1 Thess. 5:11)
“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.”
“Przetoż napominajcie jedni drugich i budujcie jeden drugiego, jako i czynicie.”
” Perciò, consolatevi gli uni gli altri, ed edificatevi l’un l’altro, come d’altronde già fate.”
With Courage and Love, Z odwagą i miłością, Con coraggio e amore,
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others! This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)