Dear Friends, Drodzy Przyjaciele, Cari Amici,
First of all, I want you all to know that I am eager to be able to write on this blog more frequently, and I will be able to do so in a matter of weeks, when my work demands change. This has been a very fruitful winter in my ongoing healing and recovery from abuse and it’s wounds, in every area of my life.
Something that has happened in this month of January is that I have experienced a profound healing in the area of my relationship with my body, weight, and food. For as long as I can remember, body and obesity and measurement have been a kind of constant torture and grief for me, with occasional bouts of respite and relief, that were always temporary. Last Fall I was painfully struggling with it all again, and beginning to wonder if this area of my life would ever really and finally reflect the healing that I so want, and have worked so hard for. I wrote a Chapter in my first book This White House about Obesity and Measurement and did many paintings on this topic over the years.
Now, it has happened….Something shifted after Christmas, and I suddenly felt very differently about food…I knew that I only wanted to eat very healthy food, and I started to go to the gym that I belong to, and it was with a different attitude than I have ever had inside before…actually, one that I did not even really recognize because it was so new. It was a peaceful and clear certainty that “I am done with obesity.”
And my habits and cravings have made a huge shift and suddenly all is well with me in my body and I am losing weight and feeling wonderful with exercising and it all happening so gently and with deep peace. The other day I woke up and I was so conscious of the new beautiful feeling I have of Being, and I suddenly realized “A Thorn that pressed painfully into me, causing me a steady and constant torment about my body is GONE. It is truly GONE….no trace of it….!
You know how the expression goes…”I didn’t know how bad it really hurt until it stopped?” Well, that is what I am experiencing and it gives me the deepest joy and gratitude.
For so many years I have labored at this…and then, one day it is lifted and healed!
Please share my joy and please believe that anything is possible. Healing in every aspect of our lives is 100% possible. I am living proof of this! Deo Gratias!
Gabriel Orion Marie
* For those of you who may not know, I have published a series of three books that tell the story of my recovery and healing from profoundly intense physical, sexual and spiritual abuse. These books have dozens of paintings that I did during my process and those paintings are a core form of communication I used in my Healing. These books are available on Amazon. I hope you will read them and pass them on to others!
This White House (Book One), Going Sane (Book Two) and A Spectacular Dawn (Book Three)